Holiday Grief

Just Life Grief

There are no rules for surviving holiday grief.  Do what you need to do to survive.  Honour your loved one how you need to, and do what feels best for your fragile, aching heart.  You are missing a huge piece of you, so do whatever you need to do to find a sliver of peace.  Angela Miller

Healing Hugs

How to Love Someone Who is Grieving Their Child

When someone you love has experienced the loss of a child, it’s hard on everyone. They are engulfed in a sea of unbearable pain and grief and sorrow while you may be struggling to stand beside them, wondering what to say, what to do, and what they need. You love them dearly, but you don’t really know what they are going through and you don’t know what to do.

Maybe you’re grieving too.
Maybe you’re suffering as you witness their suffering.
Maybe you feel helpless.
Maybe you find yourself saying all the wrong things because you don’t know what else to say.

Maybe you want to love them through this, but no one taught you how to do that.

It’s ok.

Most of us don’t really know how to navigate this thing called grief. They don’t teach Grief 101 in high school (although, perhaps they should!).

In an ideal world, your heartbroken loved one would be able to say, “Here, this is what I need. This is how you can help me.” Unfortunately, that’s generally not how it works. They have been crushed by a devastating loss and, chances are, they’re giving everything they have to simply get out of bed in the morning. Trying to articulate what they need and what kind of support they want probably feels next to impossible.

Fortunately, loving a grieving friend or family member isn’t as complicated as it can seem. Generally, it’s simply about being a compassionate and kind human.

Show Up

First and foremost, show up. Be here.

Show up at their door. Run errands for them. Do their laundry. Make them meals and sit with them to ensure they eat (many times in early grief people lose their appetite and don’t eat regularly). Lay on the bed and hold them while they cry.

Continue to show up for months or years – this is a lifetime loss and they will need you for a lifetime. Text them. Call them. Send cards. Remember birthdays and anniversaries of their child’s life. Help them plan birthday parties and holiday remembrances and show up for death anniversaries. Mark them on your calendar so you don’t forget – because they won’t. And they won’t forget those who show up for them.

You will likely say or do the wrong thing at some point. It happens. But if you are willing to keep showing up and work through the discomfort, that’s what will matter. That’s how you’ll help.

Be Patient

Grief is not short lived. Nor is it linear or simple or logical.

Grieving a child takes a lifetime. We love our children for a lifetime and we will grieve them for a lifetime. Society likes to tell us that after a certain period of time, grief should be completed and we should be ready to find “closure” and “move on.”

To be quite honest, if you buy into that way of thinking, you will struggle to be able to support your loved one as long as they will need you to.

Your friend or family member will grieve far longer than you will want to hear about it or be around for it. This is where they will need you to be patient and understanding.

Those who grieve their child(ren) will eventually find a way to live with that grief and that aching hole in their life, but they will never stop missing their child or longing to hold them. Birthdays and holidays and anniversary dates may be painful and challenging for the rest of their life.

When you find yourself tiring of their grief or wanting them to “get over it already,” remember – they are far, far more exhausted and sick of grieving than you can even imagine. This is when they need you most to keep showing up.


While you might be struggling to know what to say, it’s likely your loved one really just wants someone who will listen.

Really, truly listen.

To their fears. To their grief. To their doubts and guilt and regrets and questioning. To the part of them that feels like they’ve failed their children. To their anger and their rage at the injustice of their children’s lives being cut short. To the urges of grief that make them feel crazy and abnormal.

Let those you love simply talk with you and be heard without judgment or false optimism. Don’t try to fix it or to help them feel something different – just listen.

Listen and when you want to object to something they are saying, or inject your own thoughts, stay silent and listen even more.

Listen and then simply tell them that you love them and you are here.


Here’s the honest truth: For a while, your friend or family member isn’t going to be a terribly great friend or family member.

They probably won’t always show up for holiday celebrations or birthdays or fun outings. They’ll probably forget your birthday and anniversary and other special occasions. They may not feel up to attending baby showers and children’s birthdays or being around babies and kids at all (this particular thing might last for years).

In that first year after their child died especially, they will probably forget things you told them or make plans and either forget about them or cancel at the last minute because they just couldn’t get out of bed that day.

When you complain about every day matters like being tired or your child acting up or the annoying co-worker you can’t stand, they may not engage in the conversation the way they used to or may tell you that you’re overreacting. It’s not that they don’t care about your difficulties, it’s simply that what they’ve experienced is so overwhelmingly huge everything else feels small and meaningless in comparison.

So, when they can’t be the friend or family member you remember or want them to be, forgive them. They’re still learning how to navigate life after the entire landscape has changed – not unlike being dropped in a foreign land with no map and no way to communicate.

Get to Know Them

However long you may have known your loved one or how well you might have known them, be prepared to get to know them all over again.

The loss of a child changes us in irrevocable ways.

Your friend or family member isn’t the person they once were and they will never fully be that person again. Grief has forged them into someone new.

Don’t be surprised if they don’t respond to things the way they once would have or if they suddenly aren’t interested in things they used to love or if the beliefs about the world they used to hold so dear are ones they cannot abide by anymore.

No, they won’t be the person you remember and loved so very much. Grief will change and morph them into someone new – and even that will change and morph again over time.

But don’t give up on them too quickly. They may not be the person you knew, but you might really love the person they have and are becoming.

Take time to get to know the new post-loss them.


Finally, if you do nothing else, remember with them.

Help them remember their child through the years and comfort them with the knowledge that their child has not and will not be forgotten.

Share memories with them. Say their child’s name. Remember their child’s birthday. Honor them on the holidays and for Mother’s and Father’s day. Donate in their child’s name. Read articles like this one and discuss it with your friend or family member.

Give your loved one the gift of remembering their child. It’s the greatest gift you can give.

And above all else, love them. Love them so deeply and openly and clearly they can’t help but feel it radiating from you.

They need you and they need that love.

Love them fiercely.

Grief and the Holidays


Christmas ballsWhen your grieving the holidays aren’t always happy.
Festive lights. Beautiful music. Yummy treats.

Everyone around you is anticipating the holidays. Their world is full of excitement, love, joy. They’re planning parties, baking cookies, singing carols, lighting candles, shopping for just the right presents to put a smile on loved ones’ faces. They may complain about being busy or rushed, but they are fully immersed in enjoying the “most wonderful time of the year.”

But you’re grieving. Maybe you’re doing your best to act as if you’re just fine, and you’re going through the motions of participating in the season while privately gritting your teeth, or screaming in your head, or spending every moment holding back the tears. Maybe you’re retreating, staying at home and sleeping as much as possible, with the covers pulled up over your head. And maybe you’re just trying to figure out how to navigate this next month without going insane.

How can you get through the holiday season when you’re devastated by loss?

First things first. Breathe. Stay hydrated. Try to maintain a regular sleep schedule. Get some exercise.

Every relationship is unique, and every loss is unique. Your best way of dealing with the holidays may not be the same as mine, or your mother’s, or your children’s, or your friend’s. That’s okay!! You are an individual, and the trick is to find what works FOR YOU.

And what works for you this year may be different from last year, or next year. Check in with yourself, and do whatever feels right and healthy and nurturing.

Some people find comfort in keeping up with the same traditions they’ve always had. If that’s true of you, then go ahead and participate – but monitor your emotional and physical energy levels. It may be that you need to scale back to some extent, because you’re tiring more easily.

Some people find comfort in jettisoning everything they’ve done in past years, and doing something completely new: working in a soup kitchen, going on a cruise, starting a new hobby.

Some people find comfort in adding new twists to old traditions: going out to eat instead of cooking, making a charitable donation in memory of their loved one, setting a place at the table for the absent family member and having each person present recount a happy memory they shared with the deceased.

Don’t be afraid to mention your loved one, by name. Others may avoid talking about him/her in a well-meaning but misguided effort not to remind you of your loss. Show them by example that you want to acknowledge that missing person.

Talk to your family and friends. Find someone you can confide in about your conflicting feelings about the holidays. Let them know that this is hard for you. Let them be there for you. People who love you want to be of comfort but they probably don’t know how, because grief isn’t something that can be fixed – it’s something that has to be processed. So let your loved ones know what you need: a hug, company to watch a movie with, someone who will go with you to a party but be willing to leave early if you run out of steam.

If your friends or family give you unhelpful platitudes – “he wouldn’t want you to be sad,” “it’s time you got over this,” “just keep busy and don’t think about it” – recognize that they are trying to help but don’t know how. You can choose to ignore those statements or talk to them about why they’re more hurtful than helpful. Just realize that they almost certainly intend to soothe and comfort you, even if they are going about it in a clumsy way.

Some people find that their religious beliefs help them through grief. Perhaps you would find comfort in attending services, even if you weren’t a regular congregant in the past. Focusing on the spiritual may help you feel connected to the deceased.

Some people, on the other hand, find that organized religion isn’t helpful to them. Remember, grief is an emotional reaction to loss, and for some people focusing on the spiritual aspects doesn’t help at all with the sadness and loneliness of missing their loved ones in the here and now.

Find what works, for you. Tell the people in your life what you need. Know that what feels helpful one day may not feel right at all on another day. Grief usually comes in waves, and you may feel buffeted about even more at this time of year, when there’s a heightened expectation of cheer.

Notice the moments of peace, joy, and warmth when you can, and cherish them. But don’t force yourself to feel what you don’t, or to do what you don’t have the energy for. Take care of yourself, and remember that grief is the normal and natural reaction to loss. It doesn’t have a timetable, and it doesn’t progress in a measured, predetermined way. You will be better on some days and worse on others, and that’s okay. There’s nothing wrong with you. It’s just grief.

Even in the Dark

Seldom seen, growing along the ocean floor, the white plumed anemone is a watery blossom.  It is white lace opening under tons of black, opening as if bathed in the sun, while far from the sun.

This is the trick to staying well:  to feel the sun even in the dark.  To not lose the truth of things when they go out of view.  To grow just the same.  To know there is still water, even when we are thirsty.  To know there is still love, even when we are lonely.   To know there is still peace, even when we are suffering.

None of this invalidates our pain, but only strengthens our way back into the light.

Mark Nepo












There is a sacredness in tears.

They are not the mark of weakness, but of power.

They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues.

They are messengers of overwhelming grief…and unspeakable love.


– W. Irving